Hi guys!

I wanted to rant a little bit about my journey. July 18, 2025 changed my life forever. I had heard neva play by meg the stallion before this date and had no idea when it said featuring RM of BTS that that was somebody indeed from BTS. I did not make that connection…🤦🏻‍♀️😭 I have no idea that there was any rap music in BTS let alone three rappers so imagine my shock when I find this out. I grew up listening to rap and I honestly just thought BTS was dynamite and happy pop. The only pop music I liked when I was younger was One Direction. It was basically all rap from there. I started listening to their cyphers and mic drop remix. I credit those songs for really starting my journey and deep dive into BTS. Then solidified it even more with seeing funny interview moments pop up on my TikTok. I was like oh my God these guys are amazing.

also, around this time, I was suffering from very severe mental health issues and was at my worst. i found no joy in my life until I entered the magic shop. I found a joy in me that had been missing for so long. it ignited something in me that I haven’t felt before. and I’m so grateful that after all this I really became a fan because again they’ve brought joy happiness since my life that I thought I would never have again.

I became obsessed (still am lol) and the rest has been history. I even saw Tae at the dodger Stadium just specifically to go see him after only being a fan for a month at that time. I’ve been catching up on all the content because boy there’s a lot of content. 😂

also wanted to address something. When I first was on that path of liking BTS I was so worried because everybody has this preconceived notion that armies are the worst and most evil people on this planet. That could not have been further from the truth. I had posted on my TikTok on July 18 a photo of namjoon with the caption saying something like “oh I just found out this guy was featured on that song by Megan Thee Stallion and he’s hot” 😂 and an army commented on it saying DM me if you need help with all that stuff. She sent me a full list of everything I could’ve ever needed to know about BTS and answered all my questions and was there for me. I was like wait this is not the type of things I’ve been hearing about army. They are supposed to be this evil group of people. I hate that people have that preconceived notion about army because even though I’m a baby army going on nine months, I have not dealt with any mean ARMY only ARMY that have helped and welcomed me. despite being a baby army again, I’ve only had positive interactions with people. It’s just because there might be a few bad apples People generalize the whole fandom but literally there’s not a single fandom from K-pop to rap where there isn’t toxic fans but everybody online in the whole discourse was about armies being the worst. I still can’t believe that to this day that people have this idea about armies.

anyways, this journey has been so healing for not just me but also my mom. We had a bad relationship but I got her into BTS and now she’s a full-blown army as well. It has created a bond that I have been missing my whole life with my mom and I can’t be more thankful to BTS for that. I am going to the concert this year with my mom and I couldn’t be more happy.

One other thing I have to say is I always feel so guilty about joining so late because if I would’ve known all this about BTS, their personalities, that there was rap in there, and how healing their music can be, I would’ve joined as soon as I discovered them. it definitely makes me sad because I feel like I missed out on so much and I still deal with that guilt. even though I’m a new fan, I’ve been doing everything I could possibly do by streaming, voting, supporting, anything that helps BTS.

sorry for this rant, but I really wanted to share my experience and maybe some of you guys have had similar experiences. I will be forever grateful for BTS helping my mental health and saving me from that awful time.

for biases btw-I am OT7 inside and out all day but my bias line is RM (he’s the reason i got into them), jimin, and jk. I hate solos and antis.

Thank you BTS and ARMY. 💜🥹